The Random Musings of a Man

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Happy Anniversary

I'm not really sure whether I should be happy or sad after what has happened this weekend. On one hand, I met a girl who happens to be beautiful, smart, funny, and can make me smile at will. On the other hand I met a girl who happens to be beautiful, smart, funny, and 700 miles away from where I live...

Meeting Amanda was so much better than I could have ever imagined, I had an awesome time with her. Sure she had to bring some friends, and I didn't get to spend the time I wanted alone with her, but seeing and spending time with her was incredible. Words don't describe how I feel about her right now. I feel so lucky to have found such a beautiful, sweet, caring person like Amanda.
posted by Destructo Bill at 4:12 PM on Aug 08 2005

A year ago I was amazed that a girl like Amanda could see good things in me, and enough to come across an internationasl border, drag 2 friends along, and spend a day trying to figure out if she really liked this guy or not. I can't believe that a year has already gone by, it amazes me to think how much we've grown not only as individuals, but as a couple as well. And to see how the other people and other relationships struggle and fall apart, I would like to think that on today that I can say my love for Amanda is as strong if not stronger than ever.

It seems so strange to me that that picture is the only one that we have to mark the day, the only real keepsake, other than the mental images and happy thoughts we shared that day. I'm so glad that what I had hoped and dreamed for has come true, and so thankful that I'm still her man. Happy Anniversary Sweetheart, its been a long and eventful year, but its definitely been the best year of my life.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

I'm stuck....

I'm not really sure how I should say this here. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I have three options, all of which have their advantages and disadvantages. I kinda need a lil help.

I have on one hand the opportunity to go back to Colorado, spend it with my family, work in the family business, play with the racecars that I'd love to do, be able to be with my friends from Highschool and be in a familiar place and have a stable living and life. It would also mean big changes in my personal life, spending more time, and adding a lot more distance between myself and my girlfriend. It would definitely change how we would act together and I'm not sure I want that at all.

Secondly I have the opportunity to stay here and try to keep plugging away at my dream. I'd love to keep on the path and try to be successful out here in North Carolina, but getting into the racing industry has probably been the hardest thing I've ever tried to do. I have the ability to be away from my parents, somewhat close to the girl I love and have a new life and the love that I have for the area still here....

Thirdly I could just decided not to be with my family, not stay in North Carolina, and try to move and be closer to my girlfriend. If I was to stay in North Carolina after this month, I'd probably have to get a job just as a regular auto mechanic just to stay afloat, which heck, I could take that anywhere, and if I wanted to I could be much much closer to the woman I love and be near people who are nearly family to me already. Its a really attractive option, but it leads me away from my true family. I'm not sure if I want any of the options to be honest with you.

I've come to this huge crossroads, do I stop chasing a dream, and where do I go from there? the stability of my parents, or the support and comfort of a woman who loves me and adores me to death? Or do I not do either and continue plugging away here hoping I can get what I've always wanted... I don't want to give up on anything, but all the options have drawbacks and advantages... I'm getting pulled in so many different directions I don't know which way to go.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Its been a while

So I should update. I've had a rather interesting past 2 and a half weeks. I started off by making a suprise visit up to Canada and Amanda, and I have to thank her mom and sister for keeping a secret and managing to get Amanda to clean up so everything was nice and clean when I was there. I had an awesome time up there, I always love being up there and wish I could be up there more often.

I love Niagara Falls, and we got the opportunity to go down and stand basically at the foot of the falls and watch the rushing water come over right next to you. There is an amazing rush knowing you're at such a natural wonder, and being with someone you love makes it that much better.

I left Canada, and basically went straight to Colorado for the weekend. Spending time at home is a luxury I miss nowadays, but I'm glad for every opportunity I get to go home. I never really thought about it before I left, but Colorado has some beautiful scenery and the more I'm gone the more I miss seeing beautiful sights like this. Its such a beautiful state, and to think I can go 10 miles from my home and be in a part of country that many people should see, and many people should enjoy but never get the chance. I can't wait for the day I get to bring Amanda to Colorado and show her not only where I lived, but how beautiful my home state is.

I'll leave you with what I think is the best picture I've ever taken, and I took it at 70 miles an hour going down the highway. Lemme know what you think.

Hopefully in the next week or so I'll have a job, I really hope I will, cause my parents and a lot of other people are counting on it.

Friday, May 19, 2006

17 of the fastest cars and.....

....Michael Waltrip qualified for the Nextel Allstar Challenge.... well they're going to probably while I'm finishing this.

I've seen more cars crash qualifying for the Nextel Open and the Craftsman Truck Race than I've ever seen crash Qualifying... I thought the new surface and the hard tires was gonna solve all the wrecks and issues we had with this surface last year?

I'm not sure whats better, watching a tire deflate after 30 laps of hard racing and causing a wreck, or a tire with so little grip that its like driving on ice.....

Oh and the lil opener thing, Michael Waltrip Fans, I love you.. well Amanda atleast, and I'm probably really in the doghouse now ;)

Monday, May 15, 2006

Bad Taste

Many people have already heard the story today of how fans of the San Jose Sharks Hockey team booed the Canadian national Anthem before Game 5 of the Western Conference Semifinals. I for one am all for pumping up your team, cheering as loudly as possible in support for your team, booing your opponent, but to boo a national anthem is just wrong in my book. For the Edmonton Oilers team, having players from the US from Canada and Europe, the Canadian national anthem is more of a place holder for where the team hails from, not the makeup of where its players hometowns lie. I find it amazing that in todays day and time that the lack of respect is displayed like that, and an utter lack of respect for the anthem of our neighbors to the north.

Maybe this sets me off a lil because of my newfound affection for Canada and what it has given me, not only the girl I love, but the "American" car I own was assembled and then shipped to the states through Canada.

In today's age of national tension over immigration, I would think that Americans could still have the respect for the anthems of other countries when playing in the US. It doesn't matter if the team is Canadian, Mexican, Japanese, Albanian or Iranian, if they are playing a game here in the states, they have every right to hear their anthem and for the fans attending to have the respect for the players and teams from that country.

He's Lazy

So being a member of the superior gender, i shall do what all good women do for their men... update their blog.

Hummm so whats our friend Bill been up to lately? Well he's still looking for a job, and is being patiently optimistic. He'll get one soon, i have faith. He still loves me and arguably spends to much time talking to me, but no complaints here. Oh and his apartment is really messy, but he won't clean it up! How clothes have made there way from the bedroom to his living room floor is beyond me... That and a couch is not suposed to be used for storing mail! lol, i think im in trouble now, as if hacking into his blogger account wasn't enough to put me in the doghouse for a while.

What else? Wow Bill you have one boring life, i can't even think of juicy things to tell cyber world about. He got his hair cut a few weeks ago! Theres something, although its pretty much grown back now... Did i mention he loves me? Thats right, he thinks im the most special girl in the entire universe, and that im more beautiful than Jessica Alba and all the Hooters girls combined. Of course i didn't make that up...

Ok, im done, Bill don't hurt me... i love you...

Amanda :)

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Another update

So its been a different week. I quit my job, so I can go and work on getting a job fulltime, I'm excited about it and very very nervous too. I need it really bad, and if I don't have one by the end of May it means I'm going home. Its time to kick things up a notch and get going on things really hard, and hopefully I'll be able to make things work, and make my place in the industry.

I miss Amanda, I can't believe its been a week already since she was here. I so miss her already. I just wish that there was a way we can be together more, and hopefully once I get a job that atleast money won't be the issue like it has always been before.

Hopefully I'll find a reason to keep this updated more, and have better details to tell people about my job search soon. I'm hoping that I'll be able to find a job quickly cause it sure would take a lot of stress off me.