Random Update

Cause I'm still doing this thing, just because I've kinda lost the touch for blogging and updating every night I still like having the site, so now its kinda update at my leisure, which is bad, but until I really get fired up and wanna blog about something, this will have to do :p

OMG THE JAPS ARE COMING!!!!

Lets all run away in fear, lets all be afraid, lets all get bent out of shape and get pissed off, because omg, The Japanese are coming into NASCAR!!! OMG they are infiltrationg something that was pure and untainted, OMG they are coming into NASCAR!!!!

Jesus people, a car manufacturer, a freaking car manucaturer, made an announcement that they were entering what was pristine territory and what was purely all American before last Monday. Toyota, of all car manufactures made the announcement, and the worst kept secret in all of professional racing that they would enter the NASCAR circuit in 2007. Yes the Toyotas will be competitive, and yes they will run well and win races and will at somepoint most likely win a championship, but in all honesty what is the big deal? Why was there such an outpouring of hatred from people, and animosity started, over a small announcement. Why am I soo worked up in anger over the pure stupidity of people who feel like they need to say that we are "Yen Whores" and that we are all doomed to fail because we have this travesty coming into our sport.

I'm sorry I'm a lil worked up, and this blog is a great outlet, but damn, some people really piss me off.

The weekend is upon us

And I'm glad, one more week in the books, and I'm that much closer to having my teeth pulled and my birthday is only 3 weeks away. The Rolex 24 hours of Daytona is tomorrow, and the long winter of no racing is finally coming to an end. Speedweeks is upon us, although it really doesn't crank up for nearly 2 more weeks, its time for my weekends to be filled with racing again.

February 3rd

Thats the day I go for my surgery to get my 3 wisdom teeth removed, 2 of them were gonna have to get pulled for sure, and the third happened because it should happen anyway. I'm kinda anxious and I'm kinda really glad. I'm glad that I'm finally getting the surgery done and I won't have the pain in my mouth, even if it isn't large pain. But I'm still going through surgery and there's always the risks and stuff with that. I'm just glad its getting done.

Wisdom Teeth...

...suck, really they do. Especially when they come in at all the wrong angles and put pressure on your other teeth as they are trying to come in. I went to the dentist to see if I could find dolid answers to my mouth pain I've had for the past two weeks and my fears were realized. Not only is the tooth starting its rise, its coming at an angle to push nice and hard on the teeth infront of it. I have a return visit to an oral surgeon on Thursday and hopefully I can schedule and know of an appointment soon to get my teeth removed, it sure would be nice to have all of it done before my birthday. ;)

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I'm not a contractor...but Chocolate isn't the right building material

John Stewart commenting on New Orleans mayor Ray Nagin's comments in a speech on rebuilding New Orleans.

In other news, I find myself tired and still fighting pain in my mouth, thank god I'm going to the dentist to get the teeth looked at tomorrow.

I hate Computers

I really do, for all the good that these things have done for me, finding myself the best woman in the world and making a bunch of new friends, this computer has really frustrated the hell out of me. Last night I downloaded what I was told was a new version of MSN Messenger, to my chagrin, this cause massive failures and MSN to crash upon startup. Multiple removals and reinstallations of MSN Messenger I finally got MSN Messenger working again but now, my webcam the thing that i use the most, the thing that I love having on this computer won't work. Now at this moment, I'm happy I can send and recieve messages, but any attempt to use a webcam completely kills my Computer and causes MSN to crash. If anyone knows something I could do to make everything work again I would love to hear it, because it is incredibly frustrating not having everything work right.

A return to the Super Bowl

Its time my friends, after the 1998 season, the Denver Broncos have had year after year of mild sucess only to get shut out or get hammered in the first round of the playoffs, however 2005 was a new year and with superbowl XL approaching, its time for my Broncos to make a statement and return back to the glory that John Elway and Terrell Davis of Bronco past created. Goooo Broncos!!! kick some Steeler butt tomorrow!

Quote of the night

If we always listened to people we wouldn't be who we are

Amanda Swords

Is it the weekend yet?

I could really use a weekend to recharge my batteries. Between work and my toothache, which seems to go through its moments of excruciating pain, and then a seemingly normal period, I'm thinking I'm really gonna need to go get my teeth pulled out, and be done with it.

Toothache

Getting your wisdom teeth sucks, I'm thinking that its definitely time to see a dentist, as its been far too long, and if the pain doesn't go away in a day or two then I'm definitely going to be going to see a dentist to get them looked at. It is just all irritated and inflamed and sore and tender. Sure is pissing me off. oh well, atleast I kinda got a break today at work although it seems tomorrow will be a living hell, with so much stuff coming in. I'll survive, but I'm not looking forward to tomorrow.

Tired

oh so tired, long days of hard work, and times like this are so nice to rest and relax. I keep reminding myself its all worth it, that its all going to be worth it, and I'll come out on top of the recieving end of sucess in the future. It may not be the brightest right now, but everything will come out great in the end. :)

Labels

We're labeled as something or someone every day. We have tags and identifiers thrown out at us all the time, from geek and jock, to rich and poor. I find it amazing at how many people feel the need to label a person as something to identify with them. My name is Bill, if you want to identify me by something identify me by my name. Not by the tall guy with a gut who likes racecars and hockey. I would like for once for people to realize that labels and identifiers aren't the best way to relate to people. It would be nice to know me by my name and not by the things I do to describe me.

201 posts

So yeah, I've posted on this thing 200 times until now, and that makes this post number 201.... its not much, but its amazing that I've been doing this for that long, and that soon it'll be a year that I've been posting on here. Whoohoo for me.

Go Broncos

Kick some major patriot butt tonight. I'd love to finally see Denver advancing in the playoffs for the first time since the superbowl days of the late 90's. Go Denver!

People piss me off

From the people who don't know what a turn signal is to the people who are just assholes in general. People just piss me off. I'm sick and tired of feeling like the guy who gets all the crap, gets crap from people who shouldn't care, get even more crap from the people who do. Just leave me alone and let me live my life for a minute people. And damnit you know a little help, and a little support wouldn't hurt every now and then.

I'm sorry, but if its raining and you're supposed to pick up a load of boxes that weigh between 45 and 75 pounds, you should atleast get your fat butt out of the truck and help, not go back and ask if one of us has a lighter so you can smoke a cigarette... That and the fact I spent my day busting my ass to try to leave work a little early and that totally blew up in my face. Good think I hustled otherwise I might not be here to write this.

I'm tired...

and cranky and sore. so if you were expecting something good tonight, you've come to the wrong place, cause you aren't getting it here.

Love

What does it really mean to love someone? Seriously, to love someone is probably the question that has long gone unanswered. Nobody really can put a finger on what makes a certain person attractive and desireable to us, to make us want to be with them and want to be near them. Its a strange feeling, and many times it comes with questions that cannot be answered.

Love to me has been rather odd, I've gone through the emotions of knowing I have the greatest girl on the planet and being content and comfortable with the situation I'm in and the girl I have, to missing this same woman so badly that I feel sick to my stomach that I can't be with or near her. Love to me has become having the best person, the greatest person, and knowing that no matter what they or you do that they will love you and work with you. Love is having that person on your darkest day stand at your side and say "its okay, I love you." Love to me is much more than physical attraction, or even emotional attraction. Love is a commitment, to yourself and your lover, that you and them can stay together through thick and thin, hell or high water to survive and come out smelling like roses. Love has been so much to me, and I just enjoy it so much, and I'm glad that I have the greatest girl in the world to love.

SO this is an update

To tell you all I've entered the duldums, work is a pain, and school is done so there isn't anything exciting happening, but I'm still here and I feel like updating for some unknown reason. Mandy and like three other people read this, so might as well keep people bored with me, it might make them feel better.

Why is it...

...that a guy can try to screw up such a good thing so easily? I have the best girlfriend in the world and she is so great to me. But damn Bill, you can be a real big idiot sometimes. I'm really really lucky I have her and she understands me and works with me so well. Without her I'd be so lost and alone. I'm just glad that she see's good things in me and she puts up with the bad to get the good. I'm the luckiest man alive to have what I have, and my girl deserves a medal for having to put up with me.

Heck my mom deserves one too for dealing with me, my dad and my sister. I dunno how girls do it, how they control the chaos around them and keep families and relationships together, but they deserve to be commended, because with out that there would be a lot of lonely men in this world. Thanks Amanda for understanding me, and being such a great support to me, even when I don't deserve it and even when I deserve to be kicked to the curb.

Bored

Just bored, all day, all weekend. Good thing I have the girlfriend I do, to keep me entertained and to love me, even when I screw things up and say the wrong things. I'm a damn lucky man, and I just wanna thank her for putting up with me, and being the best girl a guy could ever ask for.

Saturday Boredom

So yeah, I've been rather bored today, but I discovered Rollercoaster Tycoon 3 today, and I'm a big fan. Being a fan of the first two and the fact that now you can ride the rides you have built is so cool. hehe its so much fun to play its addicting. Amanda, you are lucky you have the expansion pack cause now I have to go out and buy that too :p

Oh well, its is kinda a useless update, but there isn't anything real important happening, other than I might have the best birthday present coming to me :)

Layers, as Stolen from Amanda

10 LAYERS OF ME

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Kenneth William Walter
Birth date: February 18th
Birth place: Englewood, CO
Current Location: Cornelius, NC
Eye Color: Perdy Blue
Hair Color: Dirty Blonde
Righty or Lefty: Lefty.
Zodiac Sign: Aquarius

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: I dunno, British, German, probably a host of smaller parts to make a whole...
What Shoes Did You Wear Today: My Nike tennis shoes
Your weakness: a perdy smile
Your fears: dissapointing loved ones, not achieving my dreams
Goal you'd like to achieve: just to make it in the World of NASCAR

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:
Your most overused phrase(s): I dunno, there's probably bunches that I overuse :p
your thoughts first waking up: Do I have to get up already?
Your best physical feature: my eyes
Your bedtime: weekdays 11 or 12 weekends, whenever I feel like sleeping
Your most missed memory: I dunno, I really can't say there was one thing I really wish I had still from my childhood....

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: Wendy's
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Lipton Tea or Nestea: can't I put pepsi in here too?
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: Hot Chocolate with whipped cream

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: no
Cuss: yeah, probably more than I should...
Sing: only to Amanda
Take a shower: everyday
Have a crush: its gone way past crush stage...
Think you've been in love: Know I'm in love
Like (d) High School: nope
Want to get married: yes
Believe in yourself: most days
Get motion sickness: never have before, don't plan on starting now
Think you're a health freak: noo
Get along with your parents: much better as I've gotten older

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: yes
Gone on a date: yes
Gone to the mall: yes
Laughed till you cried: no
Been on stage: no
Eaten Sushi: nope, never have
Made out with someone: yes
Gone skinny dipping: no
Dyed your hair: no

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: no
Gotten beaten up: no, but I fought a lil back in the day
Changed who you were to fit in: tried, and was usually rather unsucessful at it
Lied to make someone feel better: not usually, but on occasion

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
Age you hope to be when you get married: I dunno, Early to Mid 20's seems right, as long as I have the right girl
Numbers of Children: 1 or 2
Describe your dream wedding: all that matters is that I'm with the woman I love, all the other details don't really matter

LAYER NINE: IN A GUY OR/ GIRL...
Best Eye Color: hazel, definitly a big fan of the hazel
Best hair color?: doesn't really matter
Short or long hair: long hair, but not like I haven't cut in 2 years long
Height: Shorter than me, 5'4 or 5'5 is about right
Best first date location: somewhere fun, like an amusement park or Go Karts, enjoy yourself the first time
Articles of clothing: I'm a fan of layered clothing, like sweaters with blazers over them,

LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of people I can trust: 4
Number of CD's I own: oh, probably about 20 or 25
Number of piercings: 0
Number of tattoos: 0
Number of times on T.V.: 0
Number of times my name has appeared in the Newspaper? I think 1....
Number of scars on my body: several
Number of things in my past that I regret: I regret a lot of things I've done, but I look back at them all as learning experiences and I've come out ahead as a better person.

10 reasons I love Amanda

10 random reasons why I love Amanda

10. For the way you smile and laugh at all the silly things I say
9. CAVITIES!!! (sorry, only Amanda and her family will probably ever get this one)
8. The eyes, that show me into the soul of the greatest person I've met
7. The way you say you love me
6. We can run in the snow like idiots and laugh about it later
5. For breaking me out of my shell and getting me to be more adventurous
4. How you look at me and how I see the love in your eyes
3. Having the most beautiful smile on the face of the earth
2. For understanding me, even when I say the wrong things
1. For being the most special person, and opening your heart to me and being the best girl a guy could ask for

Vacation done and a new chapter begins

After probably the best 4 days of my life, and the two weeks in Colorado weren't bad either, its time to return to the grind of work and the habit of knowing that your best family and best friends are once again hundreds of miles from you. I had a wonderful vactaion, spending time with Amanda is such a fun thing to do, having a person you can be silly and crazy and fun with makes every second pass quicker. The time back home although not quite as spectacular was needed, as I finally had time to relax and just be normal at home instead of the we only have x number of days so we have to do this this and this before you go.

Being back here in North Carolina has mixed feelings for me, one its good to be home and out of a suitcase which I've spent nearly the past 2 weeks and on the other hand, I had such a great time in Canada, and I can't believe how lucky I am to have a great girl that I have. Love sure has a powerful and strange effect on the human body, and hopefully we can continue to have the great chemistry and the great times together that we have had for over 7 months, and continue our great relationship in this new year.

Hope everybody had a great Christmas and a Happy New Year, because I couldn't have asked for any better myself.