Sleep good, too much sleep bad.

Too much sleep sucks, over sleeping sucks, and missing school really sucks. I missed 2 hours today, for the first time in a while, and I'm annoyed at myself for doing it. I really didn't miss anything important in class, and I'm really suprised at how boring this class has been because its been extremely boring. I really wish there was a way to think it could be cooler or more fun, but everything is so simple and straight forward that you get it at first and everything falls into place.

Tomorrow we get to start on full bodied ready to race cars, which will be fun to scale and show everybody my fun knowledge of these beasts. hehehehe

Boredom reigns

Today, oh god, school was incredibly boring. I mean I don't mind spending time in the classroom, but I learned that Tires are black and round. Pretty much people, its not hard, they have numbers, you match the numbers, you make sets, and you race the sets. Its not hard at all, I really didn't see the need to spend 6 hours talking about em. About the only real entertainment was someone trying to fit inside a tire, which isn't as hard as you'd think, I think if I was more flexible I could fit, just from sheer size of the tire.

Oh and I learned another way to measure tires, which I think I'd use on our stuff if we weren't in so much of a hurry to get stagger and all that. But I want to work on Radial tire stuff now, cause matching sets is sooo much easier than matching bias ply sets of tires.

And if you didn't know already, Amanda is awesome, ;)

The wonders of the shoutbox

Its an awesome thing, for people to randomly ramble in, so ramble away in the shoutbox. Its a slightly easier and quicker way to get comments on the site, layout and the people that visit this little thing, and hopefully as this grows it'll get more and more use! so get your own shoutbox at Saybox. I think this'll be an awesome addition to my site, and everybody needs one :D

Polarbears

I love polar bears, I'm a big softy for the big white bears. I just got done watching a show on Animal Planet about em and I thought I'd share a couple of my favorite pictures of the great white bear.







Hehe, I love having this image hosting thing on Blogger :)

The fun of frustration

You know how you have that one problem in math class where you can never get it right? Racecars are exactly the same, its so much fun watching other people get frustrated and confused, but I find that challenge so much fun. Its so much fun taking and moving a part and watching it change all 4 corners and see people be confused as to how come everything moved. I don't know why I find it so interesting and intriguing, but this class has become so much fun, just for the fact that I know what I'm doing, and what I've always done in the past is right. I can't wait til we scale full bodied cars next week :D

Learning what you already know...

Its suprisingly similar how things are done on a NASCAR Nextel Cup racecar, in comparison to my previous experiences. I really thought there would be more of a difference between the two, but really there isn't. I mean the components aren't all the same, but its still the same basic piece of machinery, and I'm really suprised. I guess I'm just suprised at how much of my previous experience transfers over to this, and how much other people don't know how this all works. I can't wait til I get to square a car tomorrow because it'll be fun to learn how do it a different way. This class may be hard on me in the classroom, but getting out and working is very rewarding :D

Ever wish you could tell people..

The things that you want to tell them? Tell that guy who laughed at you that he's a frigging asshole...or tell your parents what you really want? Its frustrating as hell when you can't say whats on your mind, because you either don't want to believe the truth or know that you'll never get what you want if you ask for it...

I so wish that sometimes I could be more blunt and open with people about things. Somedays I wonder why I take what I do, and never make comments about it, never say a thing. Its like a secret, but yet nobody understands when you finally do tell someone.

65 Questions, compliments of Amanda..

I haven't done something like this for a while so I'll do it again to fill the boredom of my day

1. How tall are you? 6'1"

2. Do you own a gun? Guns are bad, People kill with guns.

3. Rehab? Counseling? Counceling, not recently, doesn't mean I shouldn't have it :p

4. Have you ever killed an animal? No animals, bugs don't count

5. Are you Irish? No

6. What do you think of hot dogs? Hot Dogs rock, especially with BBQ sauce and Bacon!

7. What's your favorite Christmas song? Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer

8. What is your favorite smell? umm, A finely tuned racecar engine?

9. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Pepsi

10. Do you do push ups? Not good, not good at all

11. Have you ever done ecstasy? Drugs are bad kids :p

12. Have you been shot? What kinda question is this? noooo

13. Have you ever been hospitalized? noooo

14. Do you like pain killers? Pain killers are just meh

15. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? I don't think I have one, I'm just myself, like me for what I am, and you won't be suprised ;)

16. Do you own a knife? Only the ones in the Kitchen

17. Do you have A.D.D? Yes, well ADHD, but its basically the same damn thing :p

18. Do you love the pain a tattoo brings? I wouldn't know...

19. Name Five Drinks You Regularly Drink: Water, Coke, Pepsi, Gatorade, Water...

20. What's In Your CD Player? Bob Seger's Greatest Hits

21. Who is your best friend? Amanda

22. What's Under Your Bed? Dust Bunnies perchance, I dunno, nothing it looks like...

23. Current Hair? Blonde

24. What are you wearing? A Shirt, and Pants, and Socks even!

25. Current Worry? That I won't be able to spend the time with Amanda I want to before the year is out :(

26. Current Love? Amanda

27. Current Hate? My bank statement balance

28. Favorite Place To Be? next to my wonderful girl ;)

29. Least Favorite Place? Dentists, they're evil

30. If You Could Play an Instrument? The piano would be cool,

31. Favorite Colors? Blue and Orange

32. Person From Your Past You Wish You Could be with Right now... Past, as in met but aren't around now? Amanda

33. Where Would You Like To Go? Monaco, Italy, Egypt, lots of places....

34. Where Do you want to live? Right here in Race Country

35. Favorite food? Italian

36. Color of most clothes you own? Most of my clothes are white or Black....

37. Number of pillows you sleep with? 2

38. What do you wear when you go to sleep? Pajama bottoms

39. What were you doing 12AM last night? Sleeping

40. What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years? Work, but the good fun kinda work ;)

41. Are you paranoid? No, but its fun to pretend to be sometimes


42. First piercing/tattoo? I don't have any piercings or tattoos

43. Last person you yelled at? I can't remember who I last yelled at...its been a while, which is good

44. Latest crush? Mandy, she's the light of my life right now

45. Last thing you ate? Wendys Chicken Nuggets

46. If you could be a pirate, would you? No, pirates on the open sea all the time, I'm a land lover

47. Do you have an iPod? I'm not part of the hipster crowd

48. When and why did you last vomit? I dunno, its been a long time, which is really good

49. What's in your pockets right now? Car Keys, and a pen

50. what color are your bedroom walls? White

51. last thing that made you laugh? Amanda, cause of her wonderful charm

52. any pets now? Nope

53. inny or an outty? Inny, Outty's are weird!

54. do you have any piercings? I already said no :p

55. If you were a crayon what color would you be? I wanna be Orange or something that has the word racecar in it

56. Have u ever won any awards?
Some small things from school, stuff My parents think are really cool :p

57. How many TV's do you have in your house? umm..3

58. Have you ever sprained/broken/fractured a bone or gotten stitches?
i've sprained my ankles a couple times..and some stitches from a rouge Golf Club, Damn you Kristina

59. Who do you tell your dreams to? Everybody, too many people sometimes

60. If you could pick one person to make out with who would it be? She knows ;)

61. What do you think of the person who posted this before you? I think she's the best person I've ever met, and I know that she knows I think the world of her ;)

63. Screen Name?
Destructo Bill

64. Whats your middle Name?
William

65. What time is it EXACTLY?
6:57 pm

Happy Constitution day....

Yeah, I'm not really sure where or why we had to do stuff with this today, but evidently today, September 19th is Constitution Day. Considering the hoopla, with much sarcasm intended, surrounding the 216th Birthday of the signing of the Constitution happening Saturday, you'd think everybody would know that today was Constitution Day. Much less the fact that Congress makes every school which recieves Title IV funding participate in the wonderful event. We held a wonderful program which included much sarcasm about the relevance to Swaybars and the Constitution, which I'm still trying to figure out how the two actually could possibly go together. They said educational, it had to be educational, so what is the only thing that 19 and 20 year old guys do? Thats right Crossword puzzles! Everybody loves crosswords...

On a slightly different note here, I find it amazing how we as Americans take so little interest into Politics and the history of how the country was founded to learn about what the Amendments are, and what they let or deny the government from doing. I know it wasn't the greatest thing to do today, but I definitly learned something again, but it was something that I should have learned and retained much much earlier in my educational career.

Keep the emotions under control guys

So the more and more I watch the NASCAR Nextel Cup series I keep thinking to myself, "If I didn't know any better I'd swear this is professional wrestling." I know that my emotions have gotten out of hand in what I do, but this is the elite division of racing here in this country. I'm rather shocked at how not 1, not 2, not 3, but 4 guys could do the things and be involved in the stuff they were.

I know that stuff like what has happened between the 4 guys is gonna get ratings, because TV likes to sensationalize stuff, so to a point its good for exposure for the sport. But at the expense of a fragile image that usually isn't helped by its fans, isn't right. NASCAR I'm sure will hand out stiff penalties to most of the parties involved, or all of em involved, but it still doesn't help the image of the sport.

By the way, for all the people who don't like the racing at New Hampshire, or that NASCAR racing has become boring this year, watch the race for the lead the last 20 laps again. That was some of the best racing all year, congrats to both Ryan Newman and Tony Stewart for putting on a great show.

2500 hits..yay!

Wow, I can't believe that sometime earlier today that this little blog had its 2500th hit. This little thing has been such a cool addition, and it definitly helps me get thoughts and frustrations out there. I'm soo glad that this place seems like its slowly taking off, even if nobody ever comments on it :p

2 in a row!

Yes! I got my second Student of the Course award today, and Man do I feel good. I'm soo psyched up for my next class. It should be the best one here for me. I'm soo happy for myself on that note.

But, on the other hand, last night I found out one that its gonna be much tougher to see Amanda again than I thought, and two I found out that again my parents are being difficult working with me to go see her again. I understand that they want me to finish school and everything, but its frustrating when you've already been so close and they won't let you get what you need to go just that little bit farther... I know my mom is trying for me and I know they are both looking out for the best, but grrrrrrrr... What's an extra 20 minutes on a ten hour drive, even if its across a national border... grrr

I'm smart.

I think I'm smart, I did pretty good on my end of phase test today, I mean 100% isn't bad is it? I'm glad, because I'm pretty much assured, well I shouldn't say that, but I have a really good shot at having my second Student of the Course award. Speaking of which I need to study, just cause I've heard this test is a pain in the butt.

Work has been a literal pain in the butt this week, So much work, so little help, so much of a pain in the butt. We've become short staffed again, which is nice, but sometimes too many people just get in the way. It seems more often than not that there is too much standing around, too much asking for what to do....

Oh well, I guess I should take a road trip again, which I think I will do next weekend especially if I get another student of the course award :D

So its wednesday and I'm bored.

I wanted to go to a deal at the school tonight, but I didn't get there soon enough and there were way way way too many people crammed into a small room. I just didn't think it was really worth being a sardine for two hours to listen to 10 guys talk about the Chase to the Cup. I've finished the main part of our labwork in this class, and hopefully tomorrow I can make myself look like I actually know what I'm doing, cause I do ;)

I'd really like another gold Student of the Course Pin, cause those are purdy. I've kinda found a short term goal for myself with those, I told myself I wanted one, and I've got it, but now its time to see how many I can get. Two or three wouldn't hurt to have :D

A Crossroads

I'm kinda wondering where I should go from here with this thing. Part of me wonders how much of this is really worth placing out here, and part of me thinks that someone would like to hear about the silly things I do in my life. I'm not really sure, but I guess this is just an extension of being homesick, and an extension of not having the cash to be able to see the girl I want to be around every day.

This has to be the most frustrating thing, because it pains me not being able to do the things I want. I wish every weekend I have the money to do these things, I wish everyday that I could bring her her. I wish everyday that I could go to her, and yet every day I know that I can't do that. Maybe it isn't so frustrating the fact that I've already seen her once, and I knew right away after I met her that this would be a problem. But its really starting to wear on me. Its time, and I'm soo ready to go and see her again.

The blog is just an extension of me, and the frustrations I've felt recently make me wonder how much I should place on this thing. Maybe this isn't worth it. I'd like to think I make an impact on someone's life. Somedays I seriously doubt it. Hopefully one day I can look back and really say this was very worth it.

Is it worth it?

Really, I look back on what I do here, and what I do online and wonder to myself is this really worth my time. Isn't there something else I could be doing with my time rather than spending it here. Does anybody really care what I write in my meaningless ramblings.... Why should I continue doing something if I don't get much of a retutn from what I do. Maybe I'm frustrated, maybe I have a reason... I'd spend more time being social, but I don't like the group of people I call friends at school outside of school, my friends from home aren't interested in anything I'm doing, and well the few people I call friends here don't seem to give a damn what I do anymore... Maybe I should just give the whole thing up...

I've been away from home exactly one year now, and I wonder in the past year, how much really has changed in my life. I've nearly completed a school which will be a stepping stone for my career, met a girl who is the most special person I've ever met. Yet I still feel down on myself, and wonder why I'm doing what I'm doing. I just wish I knew that more than my immediate family and one other person really cared about what I do...

We Will Never Forget...

Its been four years, but I can remember like yesterday where I was when I first heard about the terrorist attacks in New York and Washington DC. Too vividly do I remember the horror of seeing not one but both of the twin towers collapsing. The actions of a few eccentric minded individuals have changed the way a country carries itself forever, and for that we will never forget.

On a side note for today, I changed the layout and I'm rather impressed with how it turned out, feel free to give me any feed back on it :D

People that frustrate me

1. People who can't make up their mind concerning what they want to do or where they want to be..... I'm a really focused guy and I hate people who run around doing a little of this and a little of that and have no focus to their lives...

2. The person in the White Crown Vic that cut me off yesterday, or people who drive like idiots in general.... I wouldn't have had a problem if it was one of those I'm gonna slide infront of you cut me offs, no it was look over the shoulder and see if there's just enough room to cut me off kinda things. He did it to 3 other guys while we were in traffic then when we got clear of it he putzed around at the speed he flew past us at... grrrr

3. The person who can't believe they've done anything wrong.... I don't ever do anything wrong, how can you ever blame something on me! I've never ever ever ever done anything wrong

4. The person who knows everything about everything...I've fallen into this category, but I've met some other people that damn if they don't know everything they sure make it seem like they do

5. The person who doesn't understand and accept me for who I am...Come on people, I'm not that hard to get along with I think. I can name all the people who I have had issues with in the past on one hand, seriously guys if you have a problem come to me.. its not hard to do...

This rant brought to you by stress, with a helping of why can't people get along, and presented in High definition for your reading pleasure by Blogger... There are several people who know why I did this today, and I sure wish everybody could all just get along....

13 to go

Its getting so much closer its scary. I remember not that long ago being happy to be starting the NASCAR part of this place, and now I'm a week from being 1/3rd of the way through the program. This has probably been my favorite class, not from having friends or a good teacher, but from the fact that we actually apply the things we learn in class. "Do these headers really make more torque like we learned the style would? Hey look at that they do!" That kinda stuff makes me really happy cause I can learn soo much quicker.

I'm ready for the weekend however, my head wasn't into anything today, and even with the fun noise we got to make today, I still felt kinda out of it. Oh well, Maybe its cause I want to go on a lil road trip again, and I know I don't have the cash to do it yet. Maybe I should go look for something so I can put like a donate button up or something. Not that anybody would ever do that. :P

Racecar noises good :D

Finally got to hear a racemotor run again today for the first time in nearly a year. It amazes me how good it was to hear that awesome sound again. 690 horsepower at the rear wheels on a racecar is pushing some ponies :D Tomorrow we're using the engine dyno, so we should make even more power out there. I'm really starting to like this class, too bad it'll be over nextweek..

My stupid scars from this weekend, I can't get it to scar. Everytime I clean it up it comes off, so now I have to wait for it to scab back over again...its really frustrating, cause I want it to heal right now. Now that I've grossed everybody out, with too much info..umm well I'll just leave ya all hanging there.

Today..

I'm bored, I'm not sure what to type, I'm not feeling into typing stuff tonight...I wouldn't update but I like updating this thing anyway...My arm is still sore from Saturday...and its definitely gonna take a while for it to heal. It's still basically an open wound, which sucks. I'm ready for the weekend, and for Richmond, its gonna be a great race this weekend.

Alpine Slides hurt

Especially when you're doing stuff you are told not to...I wasn't out of control, or so I thought, however my arm tells a different story..Its all bandaged up, and its not very pretty looking. Its definitely gonna scar, but I'm still glad I went and was there anyway. I had a good weekend, more so than I woulda had I stayed home. Parts of me still wish I was able to spend Saturday with Amanda, since it was her birthday..but there's always next year.

On sunday me and dad went go karting, in 6.5 hp Hondas, which were a blast, averaging speeds on a lap of 40 mph is cooking it, plus the fact you had to slow down and use the brakes. There was one part that had a quick right and left hander, that if you hit the curbs and left it flat out would set you up great for the backstretch, and launch your kart about 6 inches off the ground :D

I'm glad I came home, glad I got to see family, but I'm ready to get these next 14 weeks done with and be on my way outta this place.

An Updateless Weekend

I'm going back home for the weekend, and taking direct flights this time, I'm not doing the whole connecting sit in an airport for hours thing, plus I'll actually be on the ground before the sun sets tomorrow night. Yay! So I know this'll be so hard for everybody to suffer through a weekend without me but please try, I know this is a huge part of your lives and withdrawls are going to happen, but try to carry some semblance of a life during this difficult time. Oh and everybody wish Amanda a happy birthday on Saturday. I'm gonna miss her this weekend :(